Tuesday, April 24, 2012

The Ocean

We're at the beach right now.

This is my journal entry from this morning...

"To sit out on a balcony and watch the sun come up over the Horizon, an already fiery hot orb of light, radiating so intense I cannot look it in the eye. 
And I awake so slowly, barely alive.
But she already knows her purpose for today, and already obeys His commands to rise, as she did the day before, and the day before, and as she will continue to do so day after day, as long as He declares it so.
How can one admire the ocean and still wonder if there's a Creator?
I look and all I can do is wonder at my Creator.
Gazing out over the expanse of the merely miniscule part of the ocean I can see with my eye, from this balcony, all I can think about is the word UNFATHOMABLE.
And she, the sun, just keeps rising, higher and higher, in worship.

I don't like swimming in the ocean.
I love the ocean. I love to admire it. I love to hear it. 
I love to feel a little of it in my toes, mingling with the sand, but
I don't want to be in it.
Consumed by it.
It's just too much.

In just the small portion I look upon, in this moment alone, under the stillness of the water,
an entire world is alive with activity.
Sea life, wonders, darkness, light, organisms, death, life, rocks,plants...and it seems to go on ferver.
I'll never see it all or fully grasp it all.
Not will anyone else.
It's His world under there.
We struggle to exhaust it and explore it, but still there deep chasms man may never venture to, frustrated by our limitations. our humanity.

When I get in the ocean, I feel so small.
I'm just a dot, a pebble to be swept away, strength depleted by the tons of water.
So much mystery underneath me, threatening to consume me.

And almost more than anything else in nature, I look at the ocean and see my God.

So present.
So loud and still at the same time.
So powerful.
So invasive and so peaceful at once.
So gentle and so aggressive.
So mysterious, yet we know enough to worship.
So beautiful, marvelous, majestic.
So much bigger than me yet I sense that it's there for me.

read this passage and marvel with me...
Job 38:1-21
Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind and said:
“Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge?
Dress for action like a man;
    I will question you, and you make it known to me.
“Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?
    Tell me, if you have understanding.
Who determined its measurements—surely you know!
    Or who stretched the line upon it?
On what were its bases sunk,
    or who laid its cornerstone,
when the morning stars sang together
    and all the sons of God shouted for joy?
“Or who shut in the sea with doors
    when it burst out from the womb,
when I made clouds its garment
    and thick darkness its swaddling band,
10 and prescribed limits for it
    and set bars and doors,
11 and said, ‘Thus far shall you come, and no farther,
    and here shall your proud waves be stayed’?
12 “Have you commanded the morning since your days began,
    and caused the dawn to know its place,
13 that it might take hold of the skirts of the earth,
    and the wicked be shaken out of it?
14 It is changed like clay under the seal,
    and its features stand out like a garment.
15 From the wicked their light is withheld,
    and their uplifted arm is broken.
16 “Have you entered into the springs of the sea,
    or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 Have the gates of death been revealed to you,
    or have you seen the gates of deep darkness?
18 Have you comprehended the expanse of the earth?
    Declare, if you know all this.
19 “Where is the way to the dwelling of light,
    and where is the place of darkness,
20 that you may take it to its territory
    and that you may discern (U)the paths to its home?
21 You know, for you were born then,
    and the number of your days is great!"

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